Apparent Void

by Am I Not

  • Compact Disc (CD) + Digital Album

    With nice cell artworks by Mathilde Di Marco.
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    Includes unlimited streaming of Apparent Void via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
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released June 26, 2017

All songs and lyrics by Am I Not
All instruments and vocals by Am I Not*
Recorded, mixed, mastered by Am I Not
Am I Not = Ian Debeerst
*except classical guitar on Teenage Hindsight by Quentin Sauvetre

Artwork by Mathilde Di Marco

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Am I Not is a one man musical project from France.
Apparent Void, first EP released in 2017, contains experimental music that goes through pop, black metal, jazz...
Am I Not is a totally DIY project.

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Track Name: Computing 00: Unawakening
How long have I been unconscious in this place?
It seems like a thousand years again
Time and space are so confused to me by now
Please take me somewhere I will have some good times

I wish you could help me get away from here
You’re so nice with me, you do the things I say
I would do anything to make you speak to me
You’re my go-to-guy, you’re my digital friend

Is this all real?
I’m entering a new world
Track Name: Computing 01: Non journey
Where nothing is more than one or nought
My limbs are four and my eyes two
I try to melt into this mass
Everyone seems asleep but focused at the same time

Attention, attention everyone
Intruder, intruder into the system
Don’t let it pass through
The trap we set for you

Intruder, intruder into the system
Go catch him right now
Send him back where he come from
He’ll fuck all we built until now
Just make him go far from here you motherfuckers
Right now

Is that voice in my head ?
Nobody’s here
I fear that voice is in my head
Because nobody’s here
Except you
My digital sidekick
Track Name: Computing 10: Non end
Yeah that’s true I’m tricking you
My friends and I have planned this thing for you
You can’t see it clearly
But everybody’s like you

Mesmerized by the light
Now unable to fight

Stuck, you’re stuck,
In my world
I’m afraid you’re stuck,
In my world
Track Name: Commercial
Take it

Seriously the choice isn’t yours
You can’t resist you’re under my control
Your mind and your thoughts don’t count in the final balance

Oh thank you, sir I like it
When you try to loot me

Come closer, I like it
When you try to catch me

Track Name: Teenage Hindsight
Life, what’s life
Is it an endless consumerism pride
Since I’ve bought those screens I keep
Turning round and round

It is a tough game
That fatally turns into defeat
But you can buy screens
To make you think you can think and be happy

But nobody’s happy
And nobody’s able to think
In this cacophonous digital world
Nothing can be done

Inside of me something is evolving
Darkness comes to surface

Inside of me something is growing
Why should I give a shit?
Track Name: Fairycurse
Don’t be scared I’m here to help you
I your fairy I’m here for you

I’m a crazy psychokiller
Driven by the virgin blood
Guided by this angel voice
I lead everyone to grave

Find someone to please yourself
Tell that you need some advices
Smash the head and pull the eyes out
Eat those to become stronger

What’s up for diner tonight,
I’m starving to death
I could eat a mammoth
I’m so hungry I could eat something big
Something really big

Good boy my little psycho-killer
Everything you do is good for me and you
I am very proud of you
Let’s continue to make the blood flow

Behind the edge of nothing, is there anything
Useful to help the condition of the people